Currently Listening Morning View By Incubus see related

Me = 20

Me is 20.

Woot.

Currently Listening Be By Common Go see related

What are you suppost to feel before you can confidently say that youre in love?

I keep thinking its the point at which I would break into tears for days if I was never to see them again. I think this is about right, but imagining some people not in my life is difficult. Like my daddy. I know I love him and that Id probably want to die if he did...but from where I stand now it would be hard to imagine crying about it...even thought I know I would. On the other hand, Ive cried too many times to remember over my mom, and though I know if she was gone (which she is and I kinda just got through a pout as I went through some of her stuff) and I mean really really gone, I know Id cry just the same as if my daddy were gone, and yet, I can imagine crying.

I love them equally.....and Im really just wondering what you guys think is a logical question or feeling, that if you could ask yourself something like...."you could say youre in love if you ....think of them first thing in the morning....or you see some little kid and the first thing that comes to mind is how your kids would look...." or something like that. Im just wondering.

At what point do you say I love you? Is there a time frame? What are you suppost to feel and want?   -christine.

Currently Listening I Can't Stop By Al Green see related

Well, Its that time of year again. Time to write whatsa goins onz.

Im still at my job at the bank here in good ol' Lawton. I was planning to come up for the game but got a bit sidetracked with Dustin. For those of you who havent been informed yet, Ive been dating this guy named Dustin for a bit over a month now. He rocks too. I suppose all girls would say that about their boyfriends though.....

Im glad to hear that my dear Pokes won last night. Go guys. Dustin and I are totally planning on comming up there for homecomming though, so for the many of you that havent heard of or met him will be able to do so then.

I saw Transporter 2 last night, and might I say that movie was amazing. The stunts and fights were litterally jaw-dropping, so for those of you who kinda like action movies, I highly reccomend it.

Thanks also to you guys who were hoping to see me up in Stilly too. It means alot that Im still wanted up there, and more than likely Ill totally be back up there next school year. I know alot can go on between now and then, but Im also totally committed. No matter how much no homework rocks and not being broke all the time is awesome, I wont be able to live with myself if I dont get back in the game soon. I have to get a degree for my own peace of mind. Sure, I could probably go 40 years at the bank and never need one and totally rule the place by retirement (cause thats the awesome kinda place it is) but I cant stomach that. It feels like a waste of potential at least to not have a degree, and yes, I am still wanting my Architecture and Geology degrees. It dawned on me this morning when I woke up too, that I was never disciplined and I espicially never really used my head. I know I talk plenty enough about how spacy I am and all, but I am determined to set goals and to not get sidetracked this time. Wishful thinking for now, I suppose...but Im thinking if I can go a year and be committed to this idea and kinda live my life that way, even when I dont really need to, then I should be able to step it up when it really counts. I know Im capable, Its holding myself accountable to only me that Im working on.

Wish me luck. More than likely Ill see you before homecomming, so see you soon, and give me a call if you ever want to talk or youre down near here for a bit. Laters. -christine.

Currently Listening Mer de Noms By A Perfect Circle 3 Libras. see related

Thanks so much guys for your incouraging thoughts. Me and my weak self actually called my mom after I wrote that and now I feel 400% better. Lots of stuff has kinda been changing too. Its getting more rainy and cold here. Alot of people at work are leaving....and I feel like Napoleaon. I decided not to get the car for a bit due to the fact that I dont want to pay money for car payments and junk at the moment. Im having fun actually saving money. Its grand not being broke too, let me tell ya.

I did get a cell phone this past friday. I have alot of peoles phone numbers, but just so you know mine and if you ever have an incling to call me its 580.583.5622.Im supper excited that I did get the phone that swivels around. Man this thingy rocks. See....

Also, I drove up to Michael and Lisas wedding this past weekend. She was so pretty. The ceremony was short and sweet and totally beautiful. They make the awesomest cupple too. Congrats guys.

Also, change wise, I came back from this weekend totally sick. I still am, but Im gonna go to work anyway. I think its kinda strep, but my moms doc friends dont think its hit that bad yet....so ive got some stuff to take care of it. Its makin my ears hurt too which it totally not cool....but Im sure itll go away soon. It has to since I have my surgury (I know, again) next thursday. Sick and surgury, last time I checked, dont actually mix well.

Well, at the moment thats all Ive got. You bled me dry. Darn you.

Talk to you later you crazy cats. -christine.